I’ve been thinking a lot lately about waiting; waiting until I’ve had more experience, waiting until I’ve received more education, waiting until I’ve “made it.” Waiting is the enemy of presence. When we wait, we check out from the present and place responsibility in the hands of our future selves, who are powerless to act right now. This isn’t Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure.
I want to reiterate because I somehow lose track of this concept: Any future instance of myself is powerless to act in the here and now because he does not yet exist. Likewise, holding onto the past is useless to me now because that instance of myself no longer exists. All of my past thoughts and actions have brought me to here and now, sure, but it’s done. What I’m left with is this moment.
If this moment is all that exists, then there is no reason to wait for anything. I no longer have any reason not to focus my attention to my current thoughts and actions, with the intention of making them the best thoughts and actions.
I’m done saying, “I’ll just make it to March.” March will come. Today is here.
I’m done saying, “I’m not (experienced, good, smart) enough.” I am enough. I am here.
You are enough, too. Stop waiting.
None of this means we shouldn’t plan or have goals, but as Lao-Tzu said, “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” What step are you taking today?